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Play with your Food – “plop” go the raspberries

It’s June here in the San Francisco Bay Area and there’s a tropical feel to the air. We’ve gone from a cold late spring into an early June of weird steamy atmosphere.  I’m a little peevish because I moved here decades ago partially to escape the “dripping wet under the armpits” humidity of East Coast summers. But, you know, there’s always a silver lining – the raspberry bushes are loving this weather!  With two beehives tending to their pollination, lots of moisture and overcast sun, the bushes in our garden continue to be heavy with beautiful, bumpy purple fruit.

In early afternoon today, I decided I needed some centering before immersing my mind in the process of dissertation editing.  So, I went out to play in the garden.  I said hello to the new crop of half-inch worms in the worm box, added our kitchen scraps to the compost, shared some of the more delectable scraps with the chickens, scratched my cat Bitty’s belly, and then turned my full attention to berry-picking.

Fully ripe raspberries, ones that are almost all juice held together by a delicate skin, are just waiting to “plop”.  Looking closely, you can see how gravity is pulling the juicy weight off the stem, loosening it for freefall.  With my berry bucket’s ribbon around my neck, I have both hands free for berry-catching.  I wade into the bushes carefully and gently move bright green leaves aside so I can catch sight of the sweet gems they hide.  About every ninth berry goes straight into my mouth, providing an eye-closing moment of sheer delight.  I pick berries with one palm underneath, encouraging them with my other hand to drop without squishing.  As I’m pulled into the flow of wading-revealing-plopping, I flash on an early memory of my relationship to berries.  I’m about 4 years old and strawberries give me a belly rash so when my sisters take me to the big wild strawberry field, I’m strictly told to Pick but not to Eat.  I learn the secrets of berry-hunting from them but I cannot resist the sweet rewards!  By the time we leave, my face, hands and t-shirt give evidence of my happiness and I walk home already scratching at my tummy.  Smiling at how little I’ve changed in some ways, I finish filling my little bucket and head into the kitchen to store my harvest.

The deeper I go exploring into the nature of collaboration, the more I realize the importance of our recognizing our relationships to everything in our world.  If we can see our own collaborative relationships in tending bees that nurture and feed from berry flowers that in turn “plop” fruit into our hands, we are more prepared to create and participate in the flow of human systems.  We are in no way estranged from the world in which we live.  We only need to open ourselves to the truth of our connection.

From me to you with joy, Nika

2011: Living and leading through interdependence

I’m going to put a stake in the ground and claim that each of us needs to add “Live more interdependently” to our resolutions this year.  Goals focused on personal acquisition are out of step with current reality.  A sustainable way of living together needs grounding in sharing and collaboration in all parts of our daily lives.

My life depends on my collaborative relationships. I’ve always been drawn to working with partners and in teams, but moving into my current cooperative household on an urban homestead has made me realize how deeply I believe in living and working interdependently.

I’ve been amazed at how many of my friends are deeply curious about how well our household works. It’s spurred me to pay attention – just what is our secret?  One fundamental element is that my housemates and I hold a shared belief that the level of attention, connection and communication we invest in our successful interdependence produces individual and collective benefit.  Together, we are productive, learn, have fun, and expand the scope of what’s possible in so many ways.  Second, we are pretty skilled at following and leading.  I notice that we all have fairly strong ideas about some things and we’re not afraid to take the initiative, but we also know how to discuss things that have group impact, respect each other’s values, follow each other’s lead and actively lend support to each other’s ideas.  I’ve had very similar experiences when working in very high functioning teams in organizations. In this kind of environment, mutual trust, connectedness and care about the group’s success grows strong through lived experience.  Joyce Fletcher, research scholar at Simmons School of Management, states in her book Disappearing Acts: Gender, Power, and Relational Practice at Work:

working to create the experience of team is leadership of a different sort. Activities…are…intended to create the background conditions in which group life could flourish.

Developing these conditions for flourishing group life is the focus of my scholarly research on leadership and my consulting work.  On January 16 in London and January 22 in Bangor, Wales, I’ll be facilitating my workshop Follow, Lead and In-Between, exploring with participants how we can gain insights and embodied experience following, leading and building connectedness in relationships.

With sincere wishes for a satisfying and interconnected new year,

Nika

Still.Silent.Simple.Now

Life has been flowing strongly and I’ve been completely caught up in the tumbling froth. This past week, swirls and currents quieted, and I’ve coasted along in relative stillness. I’ve yearned to come back here and write in this simple form.

I like complexity, the rich dark chocolate of existence. And as time passes, I have re-learned to love simplicity as both relinquishing of the complex and embracing of mindful singularity.

Preparing for this morning’s free Monday tele-fun call, I realized that I wasn’t up for leading anything complicated. This could be simple. We could dig down and wallow around in the simplicity of stillness, silence, connection in the fullness of the moment.  It was so wonderful to release my cleverness.  What did we do together that was so simple?

Breathe and sigh. (Repeat throughout)

Put palm tenderly to your own cheek.

Stretch to the edges of your space, and then beyond the boundaries.

Hug yourself and recall all the embraces of a lifetime. Snuggle down and rest.

Share your experience in a few words.

Hold up your palm in silent witnessing.

As the Shaker hymn tells us, Tis a gift to be simple.  As our times become increasingly complex, we benefit from learning to give that gift freely, to ourselves and others.

With joy,

Nika

Wheeeee! We’re Alive! – 98% Stillness?

What does stillness offer you? This morning, during the Wheeeee! tele-fun conference call, we found how welcome stillness was for us.  It’s an unusual experience to be on a telephone call in order to find some stillness and silence in our busy lives.  But we discovered that it works! Bodies relaxed and voices deepened. We noticed that there was more information but less to say.  Our group presence was tangible although virtual.

Stillness offers us presence, emptiness, release from overwhelm, chance to notice the smallest things, to be clearly awake and fully embodied.  To pay attention.

Arms extended into our virtual circle’s center, palms up, we allowed our relaxed hands to cup the stillness offering it to ourselves, each other and the world around us.

Every Monday morning, I wonder how I will give you a taste of this nurturing experience.  Try this:

  • Breathe and sigh.
  • Shake yourself all over.
  • Breathe and sigh.
  • Look at the flame in the picture to the right and say the words “The Miracle is You” out loud.  Then close your eyes.
  • Hand dance with 98% stillness.
  • Pause and notice anything and everything.
  • Hand dance with 98% stillness.
  • Open your eyes and write and/or draw in your Journal.
  • Determine how you will create this expansive space for stillness in your life this week.

[This activity powered by InterPlay]

Shopping for Social Change

How much stuff do you buy new these days? You know, I just really don’t believe in buying new anymore.  There are fabulous clothes and shoes in consignment stores.  There’s “it’ll do” stuff at thrift shops.  There’s anything you could imagine getting for free available at www.freecycle.org and often on the sidewalks of my city. I sometimes wonder: There’s so much stuff in the world already, why do we ever need to make or buy anything new again?

On Cyber Monday, the Monday after Black Friday (who made that name up for the day after Thanksgiving and what does it mean anyway?), I made what felt like a very big decision. I was going to buy a new messenger bag to carry my laptop, my files and documents, iPhone and other electronic devices through a rainy winter of consulting engagements.  Enter Google, of course – the best way I know to start perusing the marketplace.

What did I want?  Well, practically, the bag has to be big enough to carry my MacBook Pro 15.4 laptop in its protective sleeve.  No black. No 20-something real bike messenger styles. Something durable. But Quirky Auntie is a fun kinda gal and she immediately added criteria to my list – colorful, unusual, fun.  And the EveryDay Leader in me demanded that I make this purchase based on my strongly held values.

“Mac 15.4 laptop bag, recycled materials” was my first Google search.  All right! It’s amazing what materials ingenious people around the world are using to make messenger bags – for example, recycled leather jackets, used bicycle tires and tubes, used rice sacks, auto upholstery from wrecked cars.  Changed “recycled materials” to eco-friendly and a whole new list of bags for purchase show up, mostly made of organic cotton, hemp and other materials.

Off and on, for two days, I whipped the search engines to a frenzy looking for just the right bag with the right price.  On Cyber Monday (which I was not aware of as a premium day to make a tech-related purchase), I discovered an awesome bag at Urban Junket but couldn’t quite come up with the $121 price on sale.  The search continued.  I must have visited a dozen sites.  Finally, I found Gnana.  This was the place! This company merchandises laptop bags made by village women artisans in India using their local fabrics, embroidery and crystals. Each bag is very individual and has wonderful capacity to hold everything I want to put into it, plus handles and a reinforced shoulder strap.  And OMG the Cyber Monday price is $55 USD plus shipping!

Ecologically sound bag?  OR Socially responsible bag that supports village women in India? Both are political purchases.  I like to vote with my dollars in the marketplace.  I vacillated.  Then I hit the “Purchase” button and ordered a wonderful handloomed striped green bag from Gnana.  I’ll come back to post a picture when it arrives next week.

The BIG HOLIDAY SHOPPING SEASON (if you still buy into that) is upon us.  How will you Shop and still Do Good?

That’s Entertainment! Or, Is It?

What the mass media offers is not popular art, but entertainment which is intended to be consumed like food, forgotten, and replaced by a new dish.   - W.H. Auden

Entertainment: something diverting or engaging. - Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary

Snapped my Kokopelli earring on, made a PBJ sandwich, and slipped out the door this afternoon for what turned out to be a 2 hour ramble-and-mull.  Walks made big open spaces in my mind and also provide lots of stuff to notice, pause, consider, wonder about and sometimes snap photos of.  After yesterday’s rainy day hibernation, it was refreshing to GET OUT.  During walks, my mind turns to the marker where it left off working on my dissertation, and sets earnestly to work in the background of all this other activity i.e. spaciousness, humming, noticing, pic-snapping.  It’s amazing and very entertaining.  Today, I came back with the general direction and some specific content ideas for this blog posting, a dozen photos and some new ideas about framing my research project.

As I walked, I was thinking about what a “home body” I’ve become. I rarely go to movie theaters, plays, concerts although when I do, it’s a very special treat and I am both diverted and engaged, meeting the definition of entertainment.  Being an urban dweller for so long, there was a time when I indulged weekly in these forms of amusing myself.  It’s all here and happening, all the time and when I was younger, I needed it.  I also don’t feel the compulsion to travel that I used to although I love visiting new places.  What’s changed and how am I “entertained”?

First and foremost, when I’m not out working, I want to enjoy my home and habitat.  When I had a commuter life, I often wondered why I took the trouble to have a home, pets, garden, etc.  There was so littlesquash blossomtime to engage deeply with my surroundings, to really be part of my home. Reflecting on that period, I can see how amped up and restless I was and how much it took (including dollars spent!) for me to really relax.  Ever since 2002, I continue to craft a life where I’m home a lot even during my workday.  I’ve released much of my restlessness.  I don’t have distasteful work that I have to recover or be diverted from. My feeling purposeful is not based on seeing how busy I can be. I notice that as my life has been enriched through slowed down engagement with home and habitat, my craving for packaged entertainment has dwindled. My cottage comes with digital cable TV and the increased volume of channels seems to have even less worthwhile content.  Masterpiece Theater, The Daily Show and a few sci-fi series are the only roadside attractions for me.  I do love films.  Netflix brings me a variety of independent and foreign perspectives on human life and relationship, and the movies I stream online don’t even require the expending of energy for postal delivery. (Although the Postal Service is gradually moving to alternative fuel vehicles – http://tinyurl.com/r6wwyl lessening the net impact).

Entertainment can be a big chunk of one’s budget. Living on a smaller economic scale, my priorities and spending decisions are different.

And usually I would have to travel to get there which increasingly I am less willing to do as I reduce my petroleum usage. Often I leave my car parked for the entire weekend.

Another realization I had on today’s walk was that I’m no longer very interested in the portrayal of themes of the “dominator society” – conquest, the weakness of women and their oppression, greed, violence and war, the superiority of men/intellectuals/the upper classes, the domination of earth by machine power.  Ok you get the idea. I just don’t want to see this replayed even for free, so I definitely won’t spend money on tickets to see it.  When you start to think about it, this even includes many classic plays, operas, ballets, stadium rock concerts as well as professional sports (but I’ve never been much of a subscriber to any of these).

I have to admit that I also have zero tolerance for “small talk” or “chit chat” anymore. [It really does seem like a complete waste of time and energy when we have much more fun and meaningful connections to be making.]   However, I am very interested in stories people are telling now about their lives, their sorrows and hopes, and their dreams for themselves and the world.  These are all around me – in songs, conversations, dances and photographs. In blogs, books, articles, poems and wonderfully strange little YouTube movies.  Gathering with friends and participating in InterPlay are main channels for interesting and art-full deep engagement with stories.

That’s pretty much it for me.  What are you doing for “entertainment” these days?

Another solar return

“Pay attention, that’s all,” Eliza said. “Notice things. Connect what you’ve noticed. Connect it into a picture. Think of how the picture might be changed; and act to change it. Some of your acts may turn out to have been foolish, but others will reward you in surprising ways; and in the meantime, simply by being active instead of passive, you have a kind of immunity that’s hard to explain–”

– The Confusion, Neil Stephenson

I’m launching into this new endeavor on my 57th birthday because all my intuition, the signs and portents, won’t leave me alone.  I’ve been in this practice of re-inventing self for a lifetime already and there is a pattern.  Great chunks of reality start falling off the edifices around me, waking me up to paying close attention.  Then, things and people that I depended on for some sense of stability become undependable.  Mostly not intentionally or maliciously, they are just dealing with the cracking up of reality too, in their own way.  Then, I have to assess which of my own creations, relationships, etc. are no longer alive and relevant for me (and perhaps even holding me back from seeing what needs to be born).  And I have to let go of some or all of them.  The next part always brings me a sense of awe because it really is magical. As soon as I voluntarily surrender what’s just been taking up space, a flood of insight and creative ideas pours into that empty space.  Often, I know just what to take action on.

Quirky Auntie’s “Sustainable Living” Room was such a gift from the universe (or wherever creativity springs from).

Ever since I left my last corporate job in 2002, I have been downsizing my material life, focusing on surfacing and putting into practice my deeply held values, and releasing my wild, creative self from all constraints (breaking through shell after shell after shell). Whew! Challenging and worthy work.  A couple of weeks ago, I realized I was in a breakdown-before-breakthrough place, everything felt weird and out of kilter making me very scared.  I was reading Thomas Berry’s The Great Work and found direction – my life choices and daily work needed to get fully aligned with The Great Work, “the task of moving modern industrial civilization from its present devastating influence on the Earth to a more benign mode of presence.”

So what would that look like?  I started making a list.  I want to bring joy, wisdom and practical action in these times where the old structures and ways are crumbling.  I want to support people who are “right sizing” their finances and lifestyles, and especially those who are engaged in building a new, more sustainable world.  Even though I drive a hybrid, I want to travel and pollute less.  I want the excellent quality creative coaching I provide to be affordable and accessible.  I want to be valued and economically self-sufficient.  I want to feel delight in my work daily.

OK – off to make it so.  Need to do a business plan, invent a business model, determine a financial structure, and build a website.